Had a brief yet interesting conversation with BT1a.k.a Distant Lover ( lol…I know he’s gon kill me for this) yesterday afternoon. According to him, I’m “insensitive to other people’s feelings (meaning HIS) and I’m selfish” and that had me thinking.

It’s not like I haven’t heard this before from a few men, but why exactly should I be willing to change my “insensitive and selfish” ways, for individuals who have yet to prove, dare I say, worthy.   Who does that?

Before I get that shit load of irritable comments, when I say “worthy” I mean, I need to have a certain level of trust in a person before I can completely let that shield down and be 100% at ease.

Self preservation is what and all I know and to divert from that is not something I take lightly - at all. It just takes time, can I have a minute? Can a girl feel you out a little more?  Let’s face it, any sign of weakness and people look to exploit that; so yes, I’m a “hard ass” cause I HAVE to be. 

The night before, I was talking to YB2 a.k.a. BankBoy, and he’s sitting there talking about some one night-er and explaining why she wasn’t “wifey” material, and can I just tell you I was totally confused. I mean I’ve heard the logic (if that’s what you want to call it) about if a female gives it up on the first night, then she’s loose and more than likely she’s not GF material, yada, yada, yada. BUT, I still piss on that theory because guys are so quick to say they want a freak, yet they find one, she allows you to go IN on the first night and now she’snot worthy?  I know, all females who’re quick to throw down aren’t all GF material but that theory never makes sense to me for some reason.  As it takes me a WHILE for that whole going IN process, I never really trip over this personally, just always wondered.

Everyone has something, I guess.

Posted: April 30th, 2008 under Just Vixen, V's Relationship/Dating Stuff.
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Posted: April 30th, 2008 under Just Vixen.
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 Some days you’re the Dog other days you’re the hydrant.  

Today is definitely one of those hydrant days.  Had a night from HELL (dealing with “men”) and really can’t be bothered with anything and/or anyone today.

Being at work, now THAT is a freaking chore.  I’m tired of these fools asking me idiotic questions. I work with people who have HIGH level diplomas from some of the BEST schools in NY, yet these nimrods can’t function unless they’re complicating my life with fuckery! These are some of the most cantankerous individuals ever put on this earth and they seem to want to suck me into their little cult. I’ll admit, not all of them are insidious serpents (to may face at least) but they all have that slithering quality.

 I’m tired of these  self-entitled, manipulative, bi-polar lunatic clients that I have to come in contact with throughout my day. I mean really, these people are some of the LAZYest complainers you could ever meet, they get a free service and continue to abuse it and those who provide it and yet they want people to feel sorry for them. NOT ME. 

Damn, this is where I work (for now at least).

Posted: April 30th, 2008 under Just Vixen.
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